I Struggle

Yes, I do.

I struggle with finding balance in my life as a wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, teacher, encourager, and photographer while keeping God as the center of it all.

I struggle to do the right thing all of the time.

I struggle to do it right the first time.

I struggle to be silent and still.

I struggle to wait.

I struggle to live in a world that is so blatantly opposite of what God desires for us.

I struggle to grasp how much pain is in the world around me and the deafening silence as people watch without doing anything.

I struggle watching people share jokes before they will share truths that will actually change hearts and lives.

I struggle watching a book and movie about killing children can become #1 while a movie about the very future of this great nation has yet to be mentioned in the news.

I struggle to understand.

The more I learn about God, and His truth, the more I struggle.  

Why the constant struggle?

For the flesh sets its desire against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are in opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please. Galatians 5:17 

I am so grateful they are in constant conflict.   Because the Spirit reminds me (convicts) that I need to align myself with God’s way.  

I am thankful that God does not let me run so far away from Him and the truth.   He is constantly calling me back to Himself and showing me I have gone astray.    He allows me to struggle so that I can see that I am simply resisting what is best for me.   My struggle in doing what I know is best is also His way to keep me humble.    I may set my eyes on what I desire, but He will find ways to show me His.   It doesn’t have to be a struggle.    I make it one by resisting His way, all the way, right away.  

I pray you will not struggle with His best for you one more day either…

 

As I prepare my heart for the holiday weekend, I am reminded that I need to let go and truly let God.   Then and only then, will I know peace, joy, and the fullness of His love.    His grace is enough.